i….need a drink.

first pills…

now drinks…

not too sure what is worse right now…(^-^);

ahhhh, i’m far from being an alcoholic…i just like hanging about vegetating and if there arn’t any affordable starbucks, TCCs or any other cafes to hang out at…why not the pub? lol, i’ve upgraded from having orange juice (last year) to this…this year…

the glory that is pimm’s…i HEART! it doesn’t taste alcoholic and is only a litttttttle carbonated tasting…bad cause if you drink it too fast…WHAM! lol…i’m terrible with alcohol lar…which is brilliant because i don’t need to spend alot of cash to get drunk if and when i want or need to

(^-^)b

mnnn…been busy…been sooooooo busy…

HDD died and took my assignments with it (which thankfully is proving to be good news because if it didn’t, i would have handed in a SHOT report as i’m learning this very minute…PHEW!)

i did brilliantly well on my last osteoarchaeology assignment that even earned a ‘fantastic’ from the lecturer who attacks us like a rabbid dog on smack for the smallest issues. so i think that’s quite an achievement…

i just hope i do as well in the exams less then 2 weeks from now which i have yet to even GLANCE at because redoing these essays are taking more time then i predicted…what with the books being impossible to locate and my brain shutting down for 2-3 days on end because of the NBA…(GO MAGIC!!!)

*ahem*

been in a relatively bite-ie mood lately too…it’s not the all round GRRRR thing…but it’s targeted at certain people…i don’t know why…you know when you suddenly notice all of a person’s faults and read into all of their actions…negatively? i don’t know why…

well…i do…kinda…

i find it nice that people like me spending time with them, but when i say i’m busy with work…I AM busy WITH work for god’s sake…i like my coffee time as well…they then take it out on my work…

“oh~ why work so hard? i work so much less and get roughly the same results…”

the hell..i’m sorry i’m dumb but i need time and work in order for something to stick in my head…

“You guys seem so free all the time”

DO I?!?!?! i’m sorry you’re never around when i’m taking a break from workbut…i really don’t like to be interrupted when i’m actually on a roll and get indirectly accused of being anti-social (which, to begin with, i am sorta anyway!).

“I see you have a new buddy”

am i not allowed to have other friends…i’ve been through this before and it didn’t end well…even after close to 5 years, we’re still not as close as before…argh! am i THAT bad a friend? 

this is why i sometimes like being by myself…i don’t have to answer to anyone.

haix, i HAVE to remember…that at the end of the day…i am here to study! those are MY priorities. i’m not going to risk it because i want to be popular or whatever…those are my work ethics, and i really wish some people could understand that.

ok…*breathe* ranting’s done…i’m gonna go and try to get back into working mode now…but not before i do this…

&^&*@%&*$@OY*^!*%@!$$&@(*&@*!GEHU!I£!*(^*£&!

 

i’ve lost it.

i’ve lost my voiceeeeeeeeeeeee!

and my housemates are being evil about it! shuddap lorh! just wait till i get it back! *shakes fist*

LOL!

~

so, i was thinking of where my vitamin C tablets are…and WHAM! suddenly remembered the cloudberry~ it’s packed with vitamin C and tastes sooooooooooo sweet! not sour at all unless you pick them prematurely when their still red/pinkish…

wants!

next time i’m in lapland i suppose 

~

and you know, i’ve never asked what DDD ever was.

i mean, i KNOW it’s chronic.  

but i didn’t know it was a form of arthritis. 

m(_ _)m

no wonder the doc and physiotherapists at CGH kept telling me it’s unusual because they usually get older people. kinda know what they mean now.

this is why i’ve been wanting to do palaeopathology in both faunal studies and osteology.

kinda cool and saddening to be able to tell people i’ve had a form of arthritis since i was 15. 

now that i know though…doesn’t this mean that all the supplements are useless? 

bleah!

kinda envious of my grandma now…

she only had crooked fingers, ive got a crooked back for holy’s sake.

plus, i was watching abc news earlier today about a lady who wrote a book on chronic pain, don’t quite remember her name or the book (i’ll go look it up again) but apparently one in four people have some form of chronic pain and 20% of them are suicidal and depressed. 

great to be learning huh.

 

-random thought because i’m sickie and procrastinating-

 

usually, all we have is a blob to start with…then when you factor in all of your evidence, taking a little bit of liberty in interpretation of the material, you can sorta get a coherent picture. that’s not to say it’s absolute. someone else can come along with the same blob, same evidence and take the same liberties but end up with something completely different. 

 

it’s all about perception sometimes~ 

(supposed to be the red deer whose bones we have tons of in the lab. been brought to my attention it sorta looks like a giraffe too…lol! there you go…perception!)

(or maybe i just suck? xP )

 

but it’s fun, no? i love the constant challenge to be creative in a different way.

 

thinking about it, i will probably have the coolest job in the world ever.

(HAH! take that “Best Job in the World!”)

 

in other news…

 

urg! i hate being sick!

…

but more then being sick, i hate being completely useless when my friends at home are.

“thank god lar.”

 

what a mess~

 

Now do you see why i need a bigger table?

Everything on the table and to the sides of the chair on the floor are alllllllllllll my stuff…for ONE essay…hahaha, i’ve been living like this from week to week lar…new week, new essay…new week, new presentation…

that’s basically how i keep count of the academic calender now, by how many assignments i’ve handed in thus far…

i absolutely can’t WAIT for easter because studying for the exams is seeming like a breeze in comparison to all of this at the moment. 

‘ELP!

 

keeps going off tangent o(>.<)o

ok ok…during term, i can be a complete hermit half the time…part of the reason of this can be ascribed to the enormous amount of time i spend researching for stuff, writing about said stuff and more importantly~ the butt-load of time i spend trying to hack my essays in half or even thirds.

i figure i’m in a giant need to learn how to be more concise and learn how to better filter through information. I mean, word limits are an estimate of the content an effective essay should contain, no? well, that and it’s to ensure our tutors remain awake reading it. 

haix…5,268 words for a 3,000 word essay…TMD sia~

grrrrrrrrr

this was the same for the human osteo essay earlier this semester…got that back today, and while it’s a 2.1 mark…it’s the lowest i’ve ever gotten for an essay T-T essays are for me to ace so everything evens out to a nice and high 2.1 (or if i’m lucky a first) when i suck at the exams~ how now sia?

hmmm…anyhoo…about the presentations…hahaha, i had gone into both equipped with a butt load of ammunition that still failed me!

2 USB drives! 2! on top of all the stuff that’s previously brought me ‘luck’~

=_= i fail so bad…nvm, still ok content wise it appears, so no biggie. times like that, i’m really tempted to invest in the parellels for mac software. it’s only going for 39-somthing quid…so…i’ll think about it i guess. will be needing the windows OS disc too though…so if i can sink my teeth in a copy of that, i guess i’ll invest away~~~

ok…i’m done rambling today

 

to hell with it…

ahyaaaa…

’tis the season of SAD…xP

nah, it’s still rather early…the sun’s still up at 6-7ish…i’m just uber bummed out with work and at home life…not used to it yet i suppose…doesn’t quite help that it seems the workload has doubled (if not quadrupled) and it all counts towards my degree now…

STRESS! (T-T)

xP nvm, i still find lectures fun larh…*sniggers* been doing tons of outside reading as well (because my tutor hasn’t approved or said anything about my chosen essay topic which is now due in 2 weeks…we had 5 originally) that’s the main issue here really…i’m bloody screwed cause there’s no time to research and write a proper essay now…can’t help but TRY to put up a fight…thinking about animals that have been dead for centuries or millennias day in day out…sleep also cannot sleep lioa…

i just don’t understand why i’m so ‘bleah’ over this…

2 weeks and no topic though!

=_=

crap to high hell and back larh…no choice liao…

anyhoo…ok larh~ everyone seems to have the impression i study alot…clean alot…work alot…xD hahaha…wonder how i managed to leave such an impression…(maybe cause i’m one of the few who can’t afford the time or money to go out with them…?…*guilt trips*) i hate being broke…having 3 quid left in the bank once just shocked the living daylights outta me…3!

can’t join archery again *stabs self*

can’t join riding again *double stabs*

can’t eat out too often now *stab STAB*

can’t go to parties or outings i’ll inevitably be involved in some way or another *stab-bidy stab stab stab*

haix…(THINK! what would yamada tarou do?)

well, at least i joined the sports hall…have been swimming again lately for my back (^-^)b

yeah…ok, i gotta go find a back up topic to research on…if i don’t get my topic by monday or tuesday next week, i’ll have to have something to fall back on just in case lar…so at least i can sleep with a peace of mind